Let's Go Crazy

Dearly Beloved, We are gathered here today to get through this thing called life…

Hi everyone… Remember me? Well the Baztard is back, not that I really went anywhere. See, I had to take some down time to… well… get through this thing called life. Words made famous by the legendary Prince, who the world lost a little over a week ago. He was an amazing artist whose innovation, chutzpah and talent will never be matched, and who will live on in all of us forever.

Has it really only been five months since I’ve last blogged? According to Baztards.com it is, although it seems like so much longer to me, and I really want to apologize for that. Unfortunately, I went through a horrible period of “brain fog,” and just about everything, including the idea of writing a blog, wore me out. I did make one attempt at writing back in February, which coincided with the end of my first year living with Hashimoto, and got published on Butterfly Nation Project (check it out: So Mr. Hashimoto...). The experience was positive in that I was able to do something I love, but the counter to that was it kicked my ass.

A lot has gone down in my life over the last five months… professionally, mentally, physically, romantically, emotionally and every other “–ly” that is out there. As anyone with a Chronic Auto-Immune Disease can tell you, the more things that happen, the more overwhelmed the mind gets, triggering a flare up. My primary focus has been my job and using all my energy to get through the day, that anything other than work has been pushed to the wayside. I have rarely gone out, and have missed many things.

However, over the last few weeks, I have made the conscious decision to fight back, and fight back hard. I started catching up on so much, from podcasts to fixing my iTunes library, to changing things around the apartment and getting rid of crap in my closets that were just taking up space. I’m tired (pardon the pun) of letting my Thyroid stop me from living my life and doing the things that I love, and that make me…well... ME. It’s just unacceptable. As Prince said in that very same song: Are we gonna let the elevator bring us down... oh no, let’s go.

 I am still fully committed to Baztards.com, and am going to try my best to push forward and get back into my writing, both blogs and articles. I can’t promise it will be an every week occurrence, but it will definitely not be another five months before anyone hears from me again. I also will be participating in AIDS Walk NYC on May 15, which I’m very excited to be a part of, and am slowly committing to attend events again. Little by little, I will get back to myself.

The scary part for me is that my energy changes as quickly as it took to write that last sentence.  But, I do have a great support system around me. They care about me and my well being, and will push me to do the things that I enjoy, while at the same time, tell me when I need to rest because I look worn out. I cannot even begin to express how helpful it is to have that kind of support, and how appreciative I am for them.

So until next time… let’s go crazy, let’s get nuts!